Man oh man, I am ALL over the place as of lately! My emotions feel like a roller coaster. It is driving me crazy.
This morning, I almost started crying TWICE out of no where. Like, felt the tears well up in my eyes and did the crazy blink to keep them back. I guess it is a good thing I am in the office along today :)
For one, I am exhausted. I have not been sleeping well at all. I have so much going on in my mind. I get like this about once or twice a year. Where I am so overwhelmed that I can't get anything accomplished. My mind never stops turning. I took two benadryl last night, which knocked me out, but also caused me to wake up with terrible medicine head. I was an hour late coming into work because I could NOT get myself moving.
I think allergies/sinus plays a part in it as well. Pretty standard around this time. I thought about going to my general family practitioner and asking for a complete physical. I have never really had one. I don't think my cholesterol or BP or anything like that is funky, but then again - it never hurts to get it all checked out. My doctor asked yesterday if I ever had anything checked like that.... Not so much. I hate needles and most of those tests require one. She is going to call me in a prescription vitamin though. She said it will help with the hormonal issues and also make sure I am getting the daily dose of a lot of different things. I am sure it will raise some eyebrows at the pharmacy because of the type of vitamin it is - which is the last thing I need :)
Sometimes I think I just need someone to vent to. Justin gets the brunt of it - but he probably would like a break! I don't need to vent about him. Honestly - I have never been the kind to need to complain about my husband. Granted, we don't always get along perfectly, but the little things just DO NOT matter. But I spend a lot of my time, both at work and otherwise, listening. I like that. Because I feel like it is something I am good at. I feel helpful and like I am contributing. But other times, I want to be able to talk and talk and have someone validate ME. Tell me it is going to work out, or whatever it is just plain sucks and they wish it were different. Just the little things.
I am looking forward to the weekend. This is Justin's last weekend of freedom before starting back to school and coaching. I cannot believe summer is coming to an end. It was a GREAT first summer of not being a student or studying for the bar!!
Friday, August 10, 2012
Thursday, August 9, 2012
Daily Update
Today started off a little rough. I had a doctors appointment I was dreading early this morning. I had worked myself up in such a tizzy over it! Turned out, it wasn't bad at all. I got some encouragement and had a long chat with my wonderful doctor that answered a lot of questions for me.
Afterwards, Justin and I went to Ruby Tuesday to eat lunch. They have a great salad bar and a lot of healthy options, so it's very easy for me to stay on track there. We also went to Target where I picked up a few essentials and Jay got some pants and a couple of polos for coaching this year. I for one can never come out of Target empty handed.
We had to head back home because I had an appointment at work I needed to be back for. The appointment went well, and I was glad to use the new system I am implementing for my clients and to manage my caseload. I think it will be beneficial. I didn't stay much after my appointment though, because our phones and Internet were out. That severely limits what I can accomplish!
It's probably a good thing, because I ended up with a massive headache/borderline migraine. I'm currently trying to fight that off.
Overall, the day wasn't too bad. I got my feelings stepped on a couple times, but with me - that's nothing new as of late. I've been on an emotional roller coaster it seems. I blame it on hormones!
Afterwards, Justin and I went to Ruby Tuesday to eat lunch. They have a great salad bar and a lot of healthy options, so it's very easy for me to stay on track there. We also went to Target where I picked up a few essentials and Jay got some pants and a couple of polos for coaching this year. I for one can never come out of Target empty handed.
We had to head back home because I had an appointment at work I needed to be back for. The appointment went well, and I was glad to use the new system I am implementing for my clients and to manage my caseload. I think it will be beneficial. I didn't stay much after my appointment though, because our phones and Internet were out. That severely limits what I can accomplish!
It's probably a good thing, because I ended up with a massive headache/borderline migraine. I'm currently trying to fight that off.
Overall, the day wasn't too bad. I got my feelings stepped on a couple times, but with me - that's nothing new as of late. I've been on an emotional roller coaster it seems. I blame it on hormones!
Tuesday, August 7, 2012
Thoughtful Tuesdays
So I decided to give myself some blogging motivation and to also get over this little slump I'm in, I am going to blog something I have decided to call "Thoughtful Tuesdays." Where I find a inspiring, funny or appealing quote and post it, and talk a little about why it called out to me. I may do it every Tuesday or not. It's my blog :) I'm trying not to commit to as much, so we shall see.
So here we go.
Sometimes I kind of struggle with this. The whole "this is the thing I think everyone else wants/expects me to do" versus "this is what makes ME happy."
I know there are plenty of "things" we all have to do in life that aren't the most fun or pleasurable. That's life. Plain and simple. But the big "things" - shouldn't those be the ones that make us happy? The ones that we wake up and think, I can't wait to _____?
I tend to be a doormat sometimes. Take on everyone else's problems and issues and forget that it isn't always my responsibility.
I struggle with loving my job. There are SO many good qualities and benefits to it. But on the flip side, it is SO emotionally involved. And emotionally charged. And sad. So, so sad some days. So it is one of those things where, most of the time, it doesn't make me happy. But in so many ways, it is still worth it.
But, I think, in general - this advice is well warranted. It, whatever "it" is, is NOT worth it if you aren't happy. Maybe not happy constantly, but happy at least a majority of the time. I also feel like, when you try and try and try to be happy, but you can't - that isn't a good sign. Something needs to change.
Just my two cents. Chime in if you want. Is anything worth it if it doesn't make you happy?
So here we go.
Sometimes I kind of struggle with this. The whole "this is the thing I think everyone else wants/expects me to do" versus "this is what makes ME happy."
I know there are plenty of "things" we all have to do in life that aren't the most fun or pleasurable. That's life. Plain and simple. But the big "things" - shouldn't those be the ones that make us happy? The ones that we wake up and think, I can't wait to _____?
I tend to be a doormat sometimes. Take on everyone else's problems and issues and forget that it isn't always my responsibility.
I struggle with loving my job. There are SO many good qualities and benefits to it. But on the flip side, it is SO emotionally involved. And emotionally charged. And sad. So, so sad some days. So it is one of those things where, most of the time, it doesn't make me happy. But in so many ways, it is still worth it.
But, I think, in general - this advice is well warranted. It, whatever "it" is, is NOT worth it if you aren't happy. Maybe not happy constantly, but happy at least a majority of the time. I also feel like, when you try and try and try to be happy, but you can't - that isn't a good sign. Something needs to change.
Just my two cents. Chime in if you want. Is anything worth it if it doesn't make you happy?
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