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Wife, doggy-mother, Jesus follower, CANCER FIGHTER! Just enjoying each day as it comes and remembering what is really important - family and GOD.


Friday, February 22, 2013

SUYL: Photos (Couples/Wedding)

Once again, I am linking up with Kelly over at Kelly's Korner. Today's SUYL if favorite photo poses.

I LOVE both our engagement and wedding photos. I am enamored with them. We were bound and determined that we would not have "stuffy" photos for either and I think we hit the nail on the head.

Our photographer for our engagement photos sadly passed away this past fall after a very long and courageous battle with breast cancer. She had such a talent and an eye for photography.

We showed up and said "we want relaxed pictures outside" and this is what we ended up with.

I love this - she caught us laughing.

Again - I love the casual feel.

We have this framed and hanging on a wall. I think the colors are amazing.
We chose an amazing photographer for our wedding. He got some of the most interesting, impressive, FUN shots. You can see a lot of them by clicking on the Wedding tab at the top of the page. However, here are some of the more unique ones!

I love this. All the girls.

Again - caught in a moment.

First look.

This picture makes me SO happy. I think the looks on everyone's face are HILARIOUS.

He had our poor wedding party RUNNING in circles in sweltering heat to capture this.

It was SO hot on the pavement and our photographer was laying on the ground to get this shot.

Again - so fun!
All wedding photos copyright Tyson Zahner Photography. Visit his website to see even more of our photos (check his wedding gallery - many of ours are used as examples!)

I also wanted to share a couple of more recent photos we had made for Christmas cards. We decided to have pictures made with our one and only child, Oreo!

She caught us in a moment - we were not posing for this!

Christmas photos copyright Colson Photography.

What can I say? I really like having professional photos! I also love looking at others. Our engagement and wedding were "BP" - before Pinterest. Since then, I have pinned SO MANY PHOTO ideas for the future, though! I can only imagine what I would have been like if I had Pinterest to plan the wedding!

Happy photo looking :)

Thursday, February 21, 2013


I don't even remember the last time I posted... Or what it was about. I am sure many things have happened since then, but I am in a fog.

I am tired. Not just physically, but mentally and emotionally. Change scares me. I want to run and hide under the covers and never poke my head out. Albeit that would be awesome, I don't think it is feasible.

Thankfully, I have a wonderfully supportive husband beside me. I don't know what I would do without him.

My feelings have been really hurt recently, and I just do not deal well with that. I can handle someone making me mad. But feeling hurt - well, that, for whatever reason, is so hard for me to process.

I feel like so much is going on, so much is potentially changing, but nothing is happening. It is SO weird. To see life move in front of you - but to feel like you are stuck and standing still?

I am sure God is tired of hearing my voice! I know He is in control. I know this is a test of patience. Of faith. I am SO blessed that in the grand scheme of life, things could be so much different than they are now.

I just am not GOOD with change, ya know? Or not having a "plan." I think that is the problem here. I like to be in control - but when you are waiting for a few pieces of the puzzle to fall into place, there is no control.

That my friends, is why I am just not good with change.

Friday, February 8, 2013


Saw this on some other blogs.. and I always find it interesting!

Currently: Sitting at work, finishing up some last minute paperwork, then headed home to pick up my hubby and get on the road to Nashville! I am taking him for a birthday celebrate. Truth be told, we really needed to get away and have some time to process our thoughts.

Watching: We are addicted to West Wing and have almost finished all seven seasons on Netflix. I don't know what I will do with myself when Jeb Bartlett isn't looking at me every night. Probably start it over with season one. That is how much I LOVE THIS SHOW.

Thinking About: How everyone I see is knocked up. Geeze. I am not drinking the right Kool-Aid people. SHARE IT.

Reading: I just started reading a new Nora Roberts book. There is something about them that always just make me happy... I love losing myself in a good book. Especially a romance! I am also exited to start reading Sparkly Green Earrings by Melanie over at BigMama. Her blog is one of my favorites! I know the book will be hilarious as well. I love her blunt honesty. And she has a pretty sweet fashion sense too.

Celebrating: Life. Love. Happiness. The usual.

Making Me Happy: Spending the weekend in a new city with the love of my life!

Tuesday, February 5, 2013

It's Been Awhile

I know, I know. Bad blogger. Whatevs.

I've been quiet lately.... We are going through some life changes, some hills we expected, but nonetheless don't want, to climb. I am going to blog about our experiences I think and save them to draft. Then, when we have finally made it over the hill and can see the finish line, I can share. I have a deep need to talk to someone, or get out what I am feeling, because it is eating me from the inside out. But maybe if I just write it down - get it out - I will feel better? I don't really know. It is definitely not something life threatening or uber serious, but it is something that really breaks my heart and just puts a damper on my soul.

However, in the meantime, we have been busy. Justin celebrated his 29th birthday this past weekend. Friday was the actual day, and I made all of his favorite foods for dinner. It was a little crazy and did NOT go together, but he loved it! His parents came over to eat and then we just hung out on the couch that night.

Saturday we went to a hibachi place with Jay's twin brother D & his wife Casey and another couple friend of ours. We had a fun night and went to see Warm Bodies. Which, admittedly, I really liked. Sunday we went over to Jay's parents for lunch with his brother, wife and daughter. Then we all headed over to another couple friend's house for the Super Bowl.

Our niece Sophie had a blast playing with her friends Jack and Bryce, the guys hung out in the living room with the television and the ladies stayed in the kitchen gossiping. I so needed that girl time, and I loved watching the kiddos play. It was adorable and sweet. There is such a bittersweet feeling in situations like that for me. It is weird and I don't really like it, but what can you do? You can't help how you feel. I loved hearing Sophie's little voice hollar through for her Momma or her Baba to "come watch" and my heart just about burst watching her interact with "friends" and learning how to play. There is SO much love there. At the same time, I just kept thinking about how much I wanted that for us.... I know the time will come. It will. But the waiting game, it plain 'ole SUCKS. It sucks ass, quite frankly. Thankfully, we have such precious kids in our life to remind us how much we are loved as a Baba and Jay to fill much of the ache.

All we can do is pray and wait it out.... And if one more person tells me "oh it will happen in His time" or "well if it is mean to be.." I am gonna straight punch them in the freaking face and scream "OH sorry, that happened in His time - it was obviously meant to be."  And then laugh like a crazy hyena and run like the damn wind. It's true. Hahaha. I am laughing just picturing it..... I don't run. That's the joke there.